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A view from multiple altitudes
...but usually with a good attitude
Created on 2009-11-24 06:22:09 (#24099570), last updated 2009-12-16
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Basic Info| Name: | Burning Brightly |
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| Location: | Kingdom of the Catalina Foothills, Arizona, United States |
BioMore energy than a nuclear power plant, I'm always the last woman standing (and am always looking for ways to burn off the rest of my leftover energy). Part of it is my bipolar illness, part of it is my personality.
I've been successful in many sales and marketing roles, love people, and have a blast with my four amazing children whose personalities and required parenting styles almost necessitate my having a multiple personality disorder (I don't but I wing it) to be the right parent to each of them as individuals. Everyone gets what they need in my house.
My kids have special needs but are incredibly gifted too. I don't consider it a burden but a blessing. Oldest (12 in a few days) taught himself to read before he was two, memorized all 50 states and capitals (not sure if he know what those were) around that same time, and now has fun memorizing Pi to 100+ digits. He's got severe social anxiety and perfectionism; I have to coax him to try new things (read: really really push) and he's USUALLY glad afterwards.
Oldest daughter is mildly autistic, sweet and sensitive. She's also incredibly beautiful with the most amazingly shaped eyes; her irises are grey and lined with a deep blue. People always tell me when she looks at them, it feels as though she looks right into their soul. She also has such artistic talent in music, studio art, and writing.
Youngest son is a chick magnet. He's ADD so needs medication to keep his impulse control in check - some of the stories he fabricated before he went on meds resulted in a call to the police (whoops!!). He's definitely a mama's boy and doesn't care who knows it. Thanked me once for his belly button. Says when I die he will bury me in his backyard so he can talk to me every day. He makes jewelry because he knows I and his future wife will like it. Knows what colors are most "in" for girls and yes, they like their earrings to match.
Youngest daughter is stormy, bored academically, brilliant, (beat Einstein, above, in chess a couple of times) and a platinum blonde with big blue eyes. Make no mistake, this is her world. It is merely for her amusement that we are in it. She throws her shoes when she is throwing a fit (often), and, her aim is getting better and the shoes are getting nicer. No heels yet, but...
Everyone I know implores me to take time for myself. My children are small... please!!! I can't even go to the bathroom with the door fully closed. This journal is a place where I get to have my own thoughts - so much of my day is spent being something for somebody else.
You'll find character sketches of people I admire, experiences in the southwest where I live, funny memories, and, occasionally, reconciling some truly awful childhood/adolescent memories with my trying to be a good parent, so themes of redemption. I'll give heads up or lock for friends only if I touch on something sensitive.
Oh, and yes, I am married - it's complicated. Never see him (his choice - he works, volunteers and has sports practically every waking moment) and his family has flown in to do some sort of intervention with (us? him?).
I've more or less given up on the emotional attachment side - it seems easier to not expect anything than to risk being disappointed. On the other hand, I'm not really sure that ripping my family apart would be in the children's best interests. I'll probably blog about it when I figure out where this is going. Right now I am resigned to the fact that if I push for communication, he moves away. If I'm away (literally, traveling), he reaches out. Would love friends who have any idea what this is...
I'm also looking for friends seeking support who are bipolar or who have kids with the disorders I mentioned above. As I have indicated, I am in a very good and stable place, but my house does not look like the typical household.
I am all for breaking the typical model and building something new that works for your unique situation. I was also born incredibly lucky with the gift of perfect timing. Even the worst circumstances in my life have had redemption written all over them at the absolute right time. I recognize it is not my doing. I am blessed.
I've been successful in many sales and marketing roles, love people, and have a blast with my four amazing children whose personalities and required parenting styles almost necessitate my having a multiple personality disorder (I don't but I wing it) to be the right parent to each of them as individuals. Everyone gets what they need in my house.
My kids have special needs but are incredibly gifted too. I don't consider it a burden but a blessing. Oldest (12 in a few days) taught himself to read before he was two, memorized all 50 states and capitals (not sure if he know what those were) around that same time, and now has fun memorizing Pi to 100+ digits. He's got severe social anxiety and perfectionism; I have to coax him to try new things (read: really really push) and he's USUALLY glad afterwards.
Oldest daughter is mildly autistic, sweet and sensitive. She's also incredibly beautiful with the most amazingly shaped eyes; her irises are grey and lined with a deep blue. People always tell me when she looks at them, it feels as though she looks right into their soul. She also has such artistic talent in music, studio art, and writing.
Youngest son is a chick magnet. He's ADD so needs medication to keep his impulse control in check - some of the stories he fabricated before he went on meds resulted in a call to the police (whoops!!). He's definitely a mama's boy and doesn't care who knows it. Thanked me once for his belly button. Says when I die he will bury me in his backyard so he can talk to me every day. He makes jewelry because he knows I and his future wife will like it. Knows what colors are most "in" for girls and yes, they like their earrings to match.
Youngest daughter is stormy, bored academically, brilliant, (beat Einstein, above, in chess a couple of times) and a platinum blonde with big blue eyes. Make no mistake, this is her world. It is merely for her amusement that we are in it. She throws her shoes when she is throwing a fit (often), and, her aim is getting better and the shoes are getting nicer. No heels yet, but...
Everyone I know implores me to take time for myself. My children are small... please!!! I can't even go to the bathroom with the door fully closed. This journal is a place where I get to have my own thoughts - so much of my day is spent being something for somebody else.
You'll find character sketches of people I admire, experiences in the southwest where I live, funny memories, and, occasionally, reconciling some truly awful childhood/adolescent memories with my trying to be a good parent, so themes of redemption. I'll give heads up or lock for friends only if I touch on something sensitive.
Oh, and yes, I am married - it's complicated. Never see him (his choice - he works, volunteers and has sports practically every waking moment) and his family has flown in to do some sort of intervention with (us? him?).
I've more or less given up on the emotional attachment side - it seems easier to not expect anything than to risk being disappointed. On the other hand, I'm not really sure that ripping my family apart would be in the children's best interests. I'll probably blog about it when I figure out where this is going. Right now I am resigned to the fact that if I push for communication, he moves away. If I'm away (literally, traveling), he reaches out. Would love friends who have any idea what this is...
I'm also looking for friends seeking support who are bipolar or who have kids with the disorders I mentioned above. As I have indicated, I am in a very good and stable place, but my house does not look like the typical household.
I am all for breaking the typical model and building something new that works for your unique situation. I was also born incredibly lucky with the gift of perfect timing. Even the worst circumstances in my life have had redemption written all over them at the absolute right time. I recognize it is not my doing. I am blessed.
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